marriage junkie

Confessions of a Marriage Junkie

3 December 2022

3.7 MINS

I have a confession to make. I’m a ‘marriage junkie’.

Before I go any further let me warn you: this is a blast from the past in more ways than one. You see, I have written about this before, and I wish I could say I am getting better, but it is not the case.

So why am I a marriage junkie and what exactly is a “Marriage Junkie?”

Maybe it’s because my own mum and dad had such a shocking marriage.  The Boys in Blue had to come down and adjudicate the fights.  For my brother and I, growing up in World War III was a pretty difficult experience.

Maybe it was a mixture of my Dad’s Australian-born English heritage and my mum’s fiery Scottish temperament that caused such regular explosions. I just don’t know. It could have been the fact that they married late in life and found it hard to change.

Whatever the case, I loved them both, but I’m not sure if they loved each other. Although they must have stopped fighting long enough to climb into bed to conceive my brother and me — surely, that says something!

My definition of a marriage junkie is someone who is addicted to having a better marriage, or maybe as Robert Palmer said, it’s being ‘addicted to love’.

Lifelong Quest

How long have I had this compulsive disorder?

Let me see — I think it would be about 47 years since this problem first surfaced.  I can still remember the day it first occurred — 29 November 1975. I walked down the aisle of a little pokey church in my white suit, with flares, and then a bit later, my wife-to-be walked down with her dad.

Mind you, she was on time, while I was late because I had forgotten the rings. This propensity for failure seems to be the story of my life. Many years ago, I found that I was not alone in my ability to fail.

My friend Greg Jasper told me that the secret to his successful marriage was his forgiving wife. My wife had to exercise forgiveness that day, and probably every day since, which is just one of the reasons I’m a marriage junkie, and I’m still working on it!

Those words I said that fateful day when it all began, still come back to me: the minister asked, “Will you love her, comfort her, honour and keep her and be faithful to her as long as you both live?” I replied, “I will.”

It was then that I took my bride’s hand and said these words, “I take you to be my wife. I accept you and you alone, in sickness and in health, in poverty and in prosperity, in agreement and in conflict, in times of comfort and in times of struggle, as long as we both live.”

We then said together, “We acknowledge our responsibilities to each other and to society. As we are united in marriage before God, we commit ourselves to be faithful and to live in love and peace with each other and with all people.”

The minister waved his magic wand and said, “You are now married,” and I’ve been addicted ever since.  I began reading books about marriage/love, doing courses and seminars, and trying to figure out exactly what I had gotten myself into.

Priorities

Some time ago, my wife and I had to do the homework that was set for the men we were training in one of our Good to Great Fathering courses.

This ‘lead by example stuff’ is such a pain. I wish there was a better way, but there is not, so I had to do what I told the men I was training they had to do.

Part of the homework was to take your wife out for a date and ask her how you could be a better husband. My wife gave me a really simple but not unexpected answer — in two words. “Work less.”

For a workaholic like me, this is a big ask. Straight after this year’s Summit, we had two days off together, which certainly seemed to recharge the love tanks. I have been working on my wife’s request ever since with varying degrees of success and failure. (Mostly failure.)

Love is such a hard thing to figure out, but when we do grasp it, it seems to slip through our fingers once again.

Sometimes we catch a glimpse of what love is all about in a song lyric. For example, Andrew Petersen puts it so well in his brilliant song ‘Dancing in the Minefields’:

“I do” are the two most famous last words
The beginning of the end
But to lose your life for another I’ve heard
Is a good place to begin
‘Cause the only way to find your life is to lay your own life down
And I believe it’s an easy price for the life that we have found.

And we’re dancing in the minefields
We’re sailing in the storm
This is harder than we dreamed
But I believe that’s what the promise is for.

The words of this popular haunting song seem to say much the same as those words I said forty-seven years ago, and maybe one day I’ll find out what they really mean!

Lovework

Pull out your marriage vows and read them aloud to yourself.

Ask the question, “Why did I say those words, and what do they mean today?”

If this is all too much for you, open up YouTube on your computer and with your wife, go dancing in the minefields.

Yours for more marriage junkies,
Warwick Marsh

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First published at Dads4Kids. Photo by Anastasia Shuraeva.

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3 Comments

  1. Kim Beazley 3 December 2022 at 11:16 am - Reply

    On the eve of our 46th anniversary, Warwick, it’s a joy to read your story, and I concur that having a forgiving wife is one of the keys!

    Bless you both for the blessing you are to so many others!

  2. Ian Moncrieff. 3 December 2022 at 3:59 pm - Reply

    Thanks Warwick for your openness and vulnerability. It helps me, to read that there is a husband out there who is not perfection personified. I can very much relate to your weaknesses, but more importantly, there is a theme in your story that underlines the way to success in marriage, and that is “love never gives up”.

  3. Leonie Robson 6 December 2022 at 7:50 am - Reply

    Love your story and confessions….
    I remember walking down the aisle towards him, and recall a man resembling a deer caught in the headlights!
    I asked him later, what was going through his mind; his honest answer – what am I doing?
    Thankfully, some 44 yrs later he’s pretty much figured it out!
    Lots of love from one junkie to another.

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